25 January 2013

No regrets?

I was sitting here watching last night's "road to the runway" on my DVR when one of the contestants mentioned being in recovery and having no regrets. This got me to thinking about a conversation Sunshine and I had a couple of weeks ago with a friend of ours in recovery. That guy? Had regrets. He said that if he had it all to do over again, there was a bunch of shit he'd do differently.

Now, I have often said that I have no regrets, because everything I've been through in my life shaped me into the person I am today. I mean, I've done some cook shit in my life, shit I might have missed out on had my life taken a different path.

However, as I get older (and hopefully wiser), I also realize that a different path might have left me in a different place right now. Don't get me wrong, I love Sunshine dearly and wouldn't trade him for all the money in the world. It's just that sometimes, I get tired of the struggles that come along with addiction.

The stigmas, the prejudices, the discrimination; some days, that shit is hard.

The good news, if one call call it that, is that we are so fucking broke right now that I have no time or energy to waste on regrets. Today, I just don't have it in me to thing about what might have been.

So, do I have regrets? Absolutely.

I'll think about those tomorrow. After all, tomorrow is another day.


  1. I don't think anyone can honestly say they have no regrets. I think that's bravado talking.

    I have Road to the Runway and Project Runway on the DVR still to watch. Is this season worth watching? I missed all of last season's All Stars. For some reason I thought they were rerunning a previous season. Did they do two All Star seasons.

    1. They did, indeed, do a second season of All-Stars, and I wouldn't be surprised to see a third. Fabio Costa should absolutely be included in it, in my not-so-humble opinion. As for the current season of Runway, I don't know how it's going to play out; Road to the Runway gave me some backstory on each designer, and let me see some more of their work, which I liked. It helped me pick favorites a little quicker. There are definitely some good designers on there, but the team dynamic may make it exceptionally melodramatic (which I don't like. Minimize the fighting, show me more of the things they do (I loved loved loved the one hour challenge that Uli and Joshua had to deconstruct and reconstruct their look, and Joshua got robbed) and thank heaven they added more of the footage of the judges' critiques to each episode in the regular Runway episodes.

    2. Ooooh now I have someone to chat about Project Runway to.