It's Monday morning.
That three word sentence was filled with unhappy thoughts. I need a whole lot more coffee to digest that sentence.
It's been a rough few weeks here in the swamp. We're broke. I conked my head on some heavy duty metal on Thursday and it still fucking hurts. I'm fighting the sads and the fear in a big way. Being broke sucks, and in case you forgot: it's the economy, stupid.
Which is why I'm grateful for the Band. I need to be jumping on this Dose of Happy Monday bandwagon. I need to be finding the good stuff.
So my dose of happy on this Monday morning is that I ave a program. I have the 12 steps that help me walk through the fear. I have the 12 steps to help me remember that the sads will pass. I have the 12 steps to give me hope. I have friends to walk through the fear and the sads with me.
In a world full of fear, uncertainty, sads, and other things that are bullshit, I am so grateful to have a program. I am so grateful for hope.
And I am so grateful for coffee. I'm going to go have some more coffee now. Enjoy your Monday.
Sending love your way Cindy. I don't have a 12 step program, but I work my own, and it is what keeps me upright, even in the very worst of times. I'm so grateful for my practices, and also grateful for the likes of you, trudging, strolling and, at times, dancing alongside of my from afar. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteKaren, #thisiswhyiloveyou
DeleteI don't know how to type this so that it doesn't come out sounding wrong so just know my sentiments are genuine and it's not me being glib, which I can sometimes be. There are days when I think everyone should have a program to work through. Today would be one of those days for me.
ReplyDeleteIt's been a bizarre Monday here. It's Monday. It's cold, rainy and grey. I woke up with a migraine so I couldn't see out of one eye, turned the TV to try to calm myself down and wait for the migraine to pass and my eyesight to return only to hear the pope suddenly decided to resign, which I find quite unsettling. And then at 8am the news broke that a man walked into a courthouse in DE and killed his wife and then at 10amish the news broke that a PA police officer committed suicide in his car in one of our local parks.
I pretty much fled the information-giving tee vee and internet in favor of the safety bird watching and was rewarded with a new visitor to our rainy backyard, a white-breasted nuthatch. So my DOH for this Monday morning is a new visitor to my little backyard community and for today that's enough.
New visitors to your backyard are good, and I'm glad you found a little dose of happy this morning. I also hope that the migraine goes the hell away fast!
DeleteCindy, I hope you don't mind me butting in - you know me -
DeleteCarol anne,
My heart goes out to you on the Migraine front. I get them every three days or so and I just wanted you to know, you are not alone. I understand and feel your pain. I hope today is a better day for you and I'm happy you can appreciate things like a new visitor in your backyard. I do the same thing when the pain hits. That or watch silly comedies! Be well and take care!!! Many hugs headed your way.
Please and thank you for your words of encouragement for my friend Carol Anne!
DeleteThanks Elsie. (((big hugs)))
DeleteCindy, thanks for allowing Elsie to post to me. (((bigger hugs)))
I totally banged my head on a metal bar on Saturday (I have the huge bump to prove it), so I feel your pain.
ReplyDeleteHaving steps to work and friends to help is a blessing.
It is going to get better.
OUCH, I hope your head feels better! I think mine is slowly improving, although the fact that I just had to think (and HARD) about where I store my shoes? Has me a bit concerned.
DeleteAs for it getting better, at some moments I am having a hard time having faith. In those moments of absolute terror, I am going to think of you, my dear friend and woman of faith, and I am going to believe that you believe. Thank you, Tracie, for being my friend!
Okay, how are the both of you today/
DeleteI'm sorry the sads have you. I'm right there with you. But you are always a dose of happy for me. Love you hard.
ReplyDelete(((Joules))) I love you too
DeleteI'm so sorry you hit your head, Cindy! I'm even more sorry it's still hurting. Being broke totally sucks. Wanting to be able to go out and DO stuff and not being able to sucks even more. It's then that we have to appreciate the little stuff and I know that you do. I am so glad you have a great program in place to turn to during times like this. A gratitude list to turn to, a sponsor to talk to, shoes to try on and dance in and act like a goofball and a doggy to love on. I'm flinging tons of glitter your way!!
ReplyDeleteMuch love and hugs!
Thank you for the glitter flinging. It is much appreciated, especially on a day when there is ankle deep rain water in the yard. That rain water is mocking me: no pretty shoes for you today bahahahaha.
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